Dreams…

I’ve been having the weirdest dreams lately.. and although most dreams probably don’t mean anything.. I am taking it as a sign and a reminder about my priorities in life. It’s mostly about me forgetting something very important to do and then later paying the consequences.. or sometimes it’s about me trying to help people.. but then I realize that there isn’t much time left to help them.. Even though it’s a bit scary.. I’m looking at the positive side of it and using it as a reminder to do what is right.

One dream that I will never forget happened when I was still in high school. I guess it was during that age when I was looking for my identity and purpose in life… Even though I’ve been brought up to know that my reason for living is to serve and worship God and to share my faith, there was a short moment in my life when nothing seemed to make sense and I felt confused and lonely. Don’t get me wrong. I have a very supportive family who would do anything to help me out.. but many kids go through these phases in life… and with God’s help, my phase of confusion did not last long…

One night.. I locked myself in my room and I just started crying… I don’t really remember why I started crying, but I just did… Maybe because I felt lonely?  who knows.. I don’t remember why..and it was a long time ago… but I remember crying and calling a church friend up… She just told me that everything will be okay and just to pray. After we said our goodbyes, I prayed really hard to God and asked HIM to let me know.. somehow.. that everything in my life will be okay. I remember crying and praying with all my might until I finally fell asleep…and I started to dream.

In my dream, I was standing at the function hall of the old chapel on Atlantic Ave near downtown Long Beach. There was some sort of church activity and I was with my cousins and some church friends getting ready for choir practice. Suddenly there was a bright light that went all around me.. at first I was afraid.. but then I realized that the light was very comforting… like an embrace… so I accepted the feeling of comfort. Then I heard some sort of voice telling me.. “everything will be okay. Don’t worry. Everything will be okay”… and I kept hearing that phrase until I woke up that morning. When I woke up.. I could still feel what I had felt in my dream.. I could still hear the voice telling me not to worry and that everything will be okay…

I guess the reason why I’m blogging about this is so that I really won’t forget.. and with the dreams I’ve been having lately… I need to work even harder and perform all my duties in church with all of my heart… for HIM. Because no matter what happens in this life.. everything will be okay.. and I won’t ever have to worry.. as long as HE continues to guide me with HIS light.

Since photos make blog posts more interesting. Here’s a teaser from my photoshoot with my friend Jenny. More about this awesome girl tomorrow ;o)